Fire has nothing to do with this

If I wanted to I could be better. I'm supposed to want to, and supposedly I'm not, so therefore I am bad.
I try to explain why I say or do something the way I do, then next week it changes.
I only focus on myself.
I say I am different but get right back in my bent over position.
Everythings peaceful until truth and future plans come into mind.
I push everyone away when that happens.

I suck at life.

No you don't, melissa.

I think I would believe you if you convinced me you could see into my situation. If you were god. But you aren't.

Sorry.